Last week I (Cindy) made a mistake at the Green House. It was a valuable growth opportunity for me personally and it also grew my connection with the children and adults there too.
In our newness of expanding to two groups space and sharing the space has been a sensitive and challenging experience. In the midst of this I made a mistake. I let one of the children from the younger group paint a chair that had been made by one of the children from the Wolf Pack (the older group). It was an emotional experience for that child as she was left feeling that something that was special to her had been disregarded and tampered with, leaving her feeling disrespected.
In realising my mistake it was the opportunity to apologise and to make ammends. It was an opportunity to connect with the older group, honouring them and showing that adult make mistakes and that they too need to take responsibility for that. As I sat in their opening circle and apologised to the ten children and their mentors I was humbled by the privilege it was to share at this depth with the children. Owning up to my mistake and expressing my regret. As well as sharing how I was going to 'fix' what had happened. I also created the space for them to respond and to share what they needed to move forward complete after the experience. In my sharing I felt both courageous and vulnerable. I felt a little teary as I shared my heart uncertain of how they would respond. I also realised how vulnerable it can feel owning up to making a mistake, even an un-intentional one.
I was grateful for feeling both the courage and the vulnerability that it took. It reminded me of what it must feel like for children when we ask them to take responsibility for their mistakes and to share what they need or are going to do differently. It was a beautiful experience as I saw the children soften to me and their hearts open as they learnt to trust me more in that moment. They were kind and caring, sharing their experiences and what they needed too.
I left that opening circle with a deeper connection with those children. Having earned their respect a little more, shown a more vulnerable and humble side of myself and inspired them to be courageous too. I learned about myself that even though I feel comfortable apologising and taking responsibility for my actions, and i greatly value that, that when I do that it is vulnerable and rightly so. It shows the authenticity of the experience.
I am glad that I made a mistake and all the growth, connection and learning that it created. As Shannon said I will definitely make more mistakes in the future, so here is looking forward to that!